Abraham; Emulan - Your Difficulties in Maintaining Faith - Jun 24, 2012 - Woods Cross Group
ABRAHAM & EMULAN
WOODS CROSS GROUP
JUNE 24, 2012

I am ABRAHAM. Greetings. I am indeed overflowing with the spirit that you have each placed a stepping stone to higher thinking. I am touched by your willingness to discuss reality with comfort. It is obvious we each bring out the best in each other. I count myself so blessed for having spent so much time with you and adding to the growth of the Cosmic Mind. It is obvious that during our time away from one another we are each reaching for answers and understanding. It is wonderful to see you each partake of the well of truth, beauty and goodness.

I am EMULAN. What a treasure to be with you this evening. I am in understanding of your difficulties in maintaining faith. During my time in the flesh I realized that what I wanted physically became the god I served. As you know, I experienced tragic loss of wife and daughter and was incarcerated in a ward for the mentally disturbed. I spent a great many hours alone and began to envision a path in my mind, a path made of soil with boulders, grass and trees and in this path there was a fork. Down one side of the fork I could see a clear path for a long way. When I looked to the other side I could see great obstacles from falling log and streams. It appeared to be rough going.
                
As I got to build my relationship with Father, I would believe He would have me take the rocky road of faith because I would be in training for my eternal career, but my animal ego mind was definitely so strong and I chose to take the clear path. On the clear path I learned nothing. I got bored. I looked for outside interests and desires of the flesh. It took a heavy knock to boost me out of this rut. I realized the path of ease-seeking was not fulfilling. There was no adventure or faith-building.

My exercise of the spirit was small. So the desires of the animal flesh became my focus. I sought escape through alcohol, drugs, sex, food—in general, risky living and at the end of the day I sat empty. I had nothing. I was indeed angry with God that He had not blessed me with a life of ease. I paid my dues. I paid with wife and child and I felt I was owed or entitled to peace, love and understanding. They say, ‘don’t become bitter, become better’—that was not the case for me. I realized I had to examine my thoughts, feelings, desires and what I really wanted. I wanted to live my life as a tribute to the family that I lost and missed terribly. I began to concentrate on gaining knowledge, soaking up every bit of information I could. I began to understand the ways of Michael and Him waiting for my knock at the Door.

As I accepted the path of difficulty and was sworn to go through whatever was before me, knowing that the Master would go first, my animal instincts began to change into spiritual seeking:

    Finding out the meaning of loss,
    Finding out the meaning of keeping faith,
    Finding out the meaning of attaining knowledge,
    Finding out the meaning of ‘what God do you serve.’

And as I sat at the end of the day I was full. I felt peace, intimacy and companionship with the Savior. Every moment with Him makes me want to put forth my best in any situation

Friends, we must not think that our time frame and God’s align, no. Time is nothing. Time is a matter of what you fill it with. Do you want to fill it with escape, unconsciousness through chemicals? Do you want to fill it with worry of money? Do you want to fill your time with regret of the past? How will you feel at the end of the day? Is your time spent learning to build that scaffolding to the morontial life? What have we taken out of the spirit life? What have we learned? How do we feel deep down when we have that closeness to the First Source and Center? Will we know at the end of the day we did our best and did it with full-on approval from the Lord?

I am so honored to be among you this evening. Thank you for the lessons you have taught me, my brothers and sisters. I am with deep and abiding love for you each. Farewell.

I am ABRAHAM. Our gratitude to our brother, Emulan, for a beautiful explanation of reality--not good or bad, just is -- and is an adventure.

For the weeks ahead let us put forth true effort into the God we serve. How does the ego-mind throw down logs on our paths? What are we going to do about it? You know Father will never let you lay down before your troubles. Take His hand and learn and do.

That is all for this evening. My love is ever-growing for each one of you, blessed brothers and sisters. Until next time, shalom.

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