CENTER FOR CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS

LARKSPUR, CA

Michael: The World Is Getting Ready For Change

MOTHER SPIRIT: Controlling Anger

NOVEMBER 10, 2003

Prayer: Dear Mother and Father, we are so blessed to be aware that you are in our lives. It is our desire and intention to invite more healing, the unburdening of our bodies and minds, those thoughts, and those patterns that have blocked our hearts from the fullness of your love. We ask that you pour into us your forgiveness; fill us with your mercy so that our being can reflect you, you and only you—your truth light and your love. Amen.

Good evening, my beloved children. This is Michael, your Creator-Father. As I gaze lovingly onto each one of you, I see so much courage, so much faith. You have yet to fully understand how much courage and faith you have shown by your desire to know me and to serve me. There are still so few sincere and honest truth-seekers on Urantia. So that which you have shown in coming to me is endearing. I encourage you to see the good that you are accomplishing in your inner development by your focus on your growth in me.

I have said to you that your world is getting ready for change and that you will change. I have encouraged you to welcome this change. This change is no small matter. It is not for the faint of heart. And you, in showing your courage in coming to me, will be given more—more courage, more conviction, more strength of character to go boldly into this time of change with me by your side.

In the coming days I would ask you to consider these questions to take to your Father Fragment: what am I changing into? What am I becoming? Ask to see yourself more and more from the Father’s perspective. Ask to see your beauty, your value, your inner talents. Ask for your self-identification to be mirrored on the Father in Paradise. Ask for my Truth-light to shine through you with greater intensity. Spend time in stillness inviting these questions and these spirit ministrations into your being. You will need all of the divine commodities that you can avail yourself of through this time of change. I ask you to not deny yourself access to these, for they are all available to you, children, you do not need hold back in availing yourselves of them.

Will you always sense the fullness of what we have to give you? No. You will not. But does that mean that you should not avail yourself of them? No, it does not. By coming to us, opening yourself to us, even though you do not sense our presence yet, simply by asking for this will the greater foundation in me in you grow moving you forward, moving you into Father awareness in time. And you all have tasted of this and so you know moments can grow and become more recognizable and even palpable in your being.

So tonight I would ask you to begin now. Begin with these questions and as you spend time in the stillness, your Mother and I will be adding our ministry into you. Are you ready to begin? Are there any questions?

Student: I want to know why I have such difficultly in speaking. Is there a lesson in there for me?

Michael: You are now working with an individual who can help you with your speech patterns. In time you will develop clearer habits of speaking that will facilitate conversation with individuals. As my presence grows within you, R, trust that certain corrections can be made within you that will assist you in your capacity to communicate. Trust your therapist to guide you and to offer you suggestions on developing better speech patterns. But for right now, focus on the Father Fragment within. Ask to see yourself from your Creator’s vantage point. Ask to see your worth, your beauty. Let us as your parents minister to you in your mind. Do you understand, my son?

Student: (comments too faint to hear)

Michael: Trust where you are being guided, and let us now go into the exercise you and I, and I will minister to you in your mind.

Relax into your chairs. Focus on that small still voice within your mind. Focus on letting it come forth. Focus on your desire to hear this voice within: Father, I wish to hear you, I wish to know you, I wish to become like you. Let your heart open with this desire, and we will begin. (Pause)

Trust us. Trust us with every aspect of your life. My children, you are so safe. Your future is assured. As you relax in this time of stillness, gain confidence in the environment that is growing within you. Gain familiarity with the resonance that is vibrating within you. As you bring in more of my truth and my substance and Father’s being-ness of personality, your intrinsic make-up will wrap around us and give your life newer, richer, and more beautiful meaning. As our beings blend together, can you sense a newness being created within you; a new dimensional aspect of your being? We are growing you in a new energy form. Allow this to unfold within you as you continue to focus your desire on union with your divine Father Fragment. (Pause)

Now I ask you to pick a particular quality that you enjoy about yourself. Let us take this facet of your jewel-like personality and let us make it more clear and defined in your mind. Sense this quality of yourself that you enjoy. When you sense it, invite your Mother and me to magnify this within you and to weave this around your innumerable thought patterns. Then relax. (Pause)

Invite your Mother to weave more of my truth of who you are into yourself, particularly into this quality of yourself that you enjoy. (Pause)

My light in you up-steps each beautiful facet of your character. My light in you unifies the multi-dimensional aspects of your being into one vibrating vibrant gem of great value. How many carats do you wish to become? Your jewel can be amazingly large, my children. It is all up to you. We have said to you: how much truth can you ingest? How beautiful do you wish to become? How much goodness can you hold within yourself? The choice is up to you. In coming! to us, know that what you have agreed to is to receive and to be made more truth-full, beauty-full and good. I will withdraw now and leave you in the hands of your loving Mother, who will entertain your questions this evening. And I leave my many blessings of peace and wholeness and forgiveness upon you. Good evening. (Pause)

Hello, my beloved ones. I softly enter your minds, greeting you with a gently whisper announcing my presence. I am here. I am your Mother, whose gentle breath breathes within you, expanding you into the beauty of your Creator. This evening your minds were receiving stronger echo reverberations of the thought streams of Paradise registering deep within your circuitry. Many adjustments are being made in you and will continue for a time as your minds softly yield to my breath of life that re-forms you, reshapes you around the truth light of your Creator Father. Relax into this experience. Open your willingness to emulate your divine Source fully and completely. Think not of the human mind as having its pockets of resistance to diminish your efforts or to prevent you from achieving this. Simply allow my breath of life to re-configure you by relaxing into me. (Pause)

You may drift into deep relaxation knowing that your mind is safe resting in me. Allow the natural thought streams that float in and out of your conscious mind to meander into my domain of healing, purification, and correction. (Pause)

I will make you new. You will like this new person you are becoming. You will identify with this beauty and this purity that you sense. It will resonate a truth chord of your deepest soul yearning. Grow in me. (Pause)

The Father has so much love to give you, children, so much compassion and understanding and forgiveness. Know that your bodies are being opened to receive this more fully. It is safe to want these gifts to be added into you. It is desirable that you should ask for them each and every moment of the day should you have the recollection to do so. All this and so much more is available to you. I will address your comments before I say good night. (Pause)

Student: Mother Nebadonia, what does it mean to forgive?

Nebadonia: C, my son, it means to have the desire to see everything through the eyes of the Father. To desire to have that cosmic and far-seeing understanding and compassion and love. But forgiveness is what you might consider to be a compilation of all those qualities and spiritual treasures. It becomes a natural outpouring of your heart to increasingly want to help another person gain access to the Father’s love. It is not short-sighted; it does not render any expectations for a certain behavior from an individual. It is open compassion and complete understanding. When your heart is so full that is naturally reacts in this way, then you will have known what it is to be in the flow of forgiveness. Do you understand, my son?

Student: Is it a place to get to, or is it coming naturally as we grow and understand yours and Michael’s love and our Father’s love? I’m not sure what is the right question to ask.

Nebadonia: What is in your heart? What does your heart speak to you about this interest you have in forgiving?

Student: I’m beginning to find there are a lot of people in my past that I don’t like and haven’t forgiven and have caused me a great deal of pain. I want to get rid of that because it blocks a lot of the love from the Father. It causes me to avoid people that are not going to agree with me. Something like that, but I’m not sure of the fullness of it yet.

But it does block a lot of the growth I would like to have.

Nebadonia: In the exercise this evening as you were growing in your comprehension of yourself as a child of God, do you also know that each individual would wish to be seen in this way? (Yes.) And so, what you can do now in delving into this realm of forgiveness is to understand that each person is a child of the Father. And as you see yourself more from those eyes, will you increasingly begin to see yourself noticing others in this way also.

Student: I can see other people as being children of God. I have difficulty seeing myself as that, that’s the bottom line in this. I would like to forgive myself for the past.

Nebadonia: As you grow in your comprehension of yourself, you will find that the understanding of your actions will change. You will naturally be able to accept this level of forgiveness. That will in turn and in time free you to lovingly accept and understand others. You will be in that flow of forgiveness. Be patient with yourself. Look not to your past mistakes. Focus entirely now on seeing yourself from the Father’s perspective. Let yourself be loved. Let yourself be accepted. Receive this ever-flowing quality of merciful understanding. As you grow more comfortable within this, you will find it easy to forgive yourself. Rest easy in me, my child. You are growing. You are coming out of the past into a glorious new future. Receive my embrace. (Pause)

Student: Divine Mother, just when I felt I had reached level of enhanced wisdom and peace, soon after that I just feel attacked by feelings of anger that persist for days. I don’t know, sadly, how to deal with that or what it means. I’m wondering how to cope or how to think of it, how to control it perhaps.

Nebadonia: The control of violence is best achieved by taking yourself away into a place of internal beauty and peace. Anger is a registration of a violation of your self-dignity and worth. It creates a very violent and disrupting emotional outburst within you, does it not, C? (Yes) My son, I am glad that you have raised this situation with me tonight as your desire to overcome this is extremely encouraging to hear and you will be able to this, I assure you.

When this occurs, it will be very difficult for you to control this at first. It is important now for you to consciously stop yourself in the middle of the outburst, and take yourself to a place of peace internally. This will take an effort at maintaining a certain amount of self-control, but you can do this; you can recognize that you are out of control with anger and have a desire to come into a place of peace.

Breathe into me when you recognize that you are out of control. Ask for me to come into you. Let me move you gracefully into that place of peace. When you are in that place of peace and you feel it, and it is not just an intellectual desire but a recognizable reality deep within your being, ask your Father Michael to illuminate your being with truth to restore your self-worth and sense of dignity. Stay in this place as long as you need to. When you begin to feel your self-value return, your anger will be diminished. And then, as your anger diminishes, ask to see the truth about what has caused this disruption and why it manifested ! as anger. Do you think you will be able to do this, my son?

Student: Yes. I do.

Nebadonia: Do you find these instructions clear and afford you a sequence to follow in your heart and mind?

Student: Yes, they seem very…well they seem perfect.

Nebadonia: Call on me as you feel these bubblings of anger within you. The more you remember to call on me, the more peace I can bring into you, so that in time all you will feel is peace. The anger will be long forgotten.

Student: That sounds right.

Nebadonia: Let my breath of peace now fill you, soothe you, comfort you. (Pause)

Student: Mother, for the past week I’ve been feeling this deep sense of loneliness. It feels full of anguish and quite painful in my relationships with people. I try to feel it and go into its depths as best I can. For if I’m able to, I know I have connected with my truth and honored my soul. I don’t know what to make of it all. There are times when I feel like I’ve had enough—enough change and disruption. For all I desire is to live and breath the truth, but it’s such a lonely place. I just don’t k! now how to deal with that?

Nebadonia: But do you not sense, my son, that you are growing in your capacity to endure?

Student: I do have that sense, and it’s what keeps me going.

Nebadonia: But you want to know how much more you must endure?

Student: I don’t know if it’s how much more. I really don’t have that sense. I remember you said to me recently to follow and be the Father’s will at any cost. That has stuck in my mind to discern its deeper meaning.

Nebadonia: But, D, you are being taken into a realm where so few of your human brethren have ever dared to go. Why would you think that the effort then would not be considered monumental from a human standpoint, and that you must endure this for a long as it takes? In this you are growing a tremendous capacity for patience and acceptance. These are eternal qualities. I want you to think about this: the idea of eternal qualities. If you desire to live in truth, is that not an absolute substance of the Father? (Yes, it is.) So, why would patience or tolerance or acceptance be limited in any human capacity? You are being stretched beyond your mere human-ness now. It is now in this quality of enduring that you are now being instilled with these eternal values of patience and tolerance and acceptance. Are these not all qualities of truth?

Student: Yes, they are. I guess I am wanting some validation that I am on the right path.

Nebadonia: Open your heart and receive me and you will know what is truth. (Pause)

Student: What is it that I am holding on to that is making me unhappy and that keeps me from feeling the joy that is inherent in all of us?

Nebadonia: As your Father has said to you, you must be willing to accept both ends of the spectrum of what is in the Father’s plan. Have you consciously and deeply opened yourself up to the end of the spectrum that you find less palatable? I want to ask yourself this question in your own stillness.

I am with you as you go through this. I am with you. Have no fear. Feel my arms hold you close as you open yourself up to this place deep within you. (Pause) Have no fear. (Pause)

My little ones, you all strive so hard. You are all still so very judgmental of yourselves. When you sense yourself self-assessing in a negative fashion, call upon me. Call upon me to breathe more love into you; to breathe more acceptance and understanding into you. This negation of yourself is normal and it is part and parcel of your human condition here on Urantia. But you need not shoulder this burden any longer, my children. Breathe and allow my love, my understanding, my acceptance to soften your self-assessment. !

Become as little helpless babes coming to me and asking for my arms to enfold you and my kisses to warm your face and coat your cheeks and to wipe away any tears of sadness. We are here to end your suffering. It is only a moment away for you to find relief. As you ponder the questions your Father posed to you in the coming days, when you feel the uprisings of any painful self-assessment or self-awareness, ask to see yourself from the Father’s eyes. Ask to see your beauty. Ask to see your worth. Know that it is my caress that is bringing you into a new awareness of your true nature and how precious you are. Good evening, my beloved children. END