CENTER FOR CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS

Larkspur, CA

MOTHER SPIRIT AND MICHAEL -

Come To Me to Release Doubt, Fear, Depression, and Anxiety

AUGUST 4, 2003

My children, good evening. This is Nebadonia, your Mother. I welcome you here this evening and receive you into my bosom. As my mind is actually endowed throughout your being of consciousness, I invite you to receive me more fully in your awareness in sensing my motherliness and trusting my all pervading love that flows through you. It is my desire that you, my children, should know, feel, receive the fullness of my love for you. Receive this now, my dear ones. (Pause)

Envision if you will a light beam as my love. Invite my love as this beam of light into those places in your body where you sense tension. Ask for the light to envelop this tension. Sense the expansion of the tension and let it dissipate as you melt more trustingly into my loving embrace. (Pause)

Invite the truth of Michael now into your being. Welcome your Creator-Father into your body and mind. (Pause)

As your Creator-Father stands in the very center of your being, invite your thoughts to gravitate into Him. Invite the way you think and the thoughts you think to blend into His being to be transformed into truth and into righteousness. You can only gain greater freedom in your body and mind when you do this, my children. You will actually grow and free yourself from fear and doubt by simply inviting your thoughts into the truth. Spend some time now consciously directing your thought patterns into the very essence of your Father. (Pause)

Can you sense now an expansion of your own loveliness? Can you feel an awareness of a greater capacity for love and for goodness? In this exercise you are being nourished in your soul by your soul's food-the Living Truth. You know your Father has spoken these words: "I am the Living Water. I am the Bread of Life." And now, my children, experience this nourishment vibrating, alive within you. Know this is the place to receive your food for your eternal life. (Pause) Your Father will address you now.

Greetings, my children. This is Michael. When you open yourself to me, you are inviting every speck of error and sin within you to be purified. I desire that my children stand before me in the purest innocence of their goodness-of their Father-likeness. It is my truth that will free you from all of the layers that you have held within you in thought, in
word, in deed. It is by the action of your Mother that my truth is able to shine forth through these many layers. So you need not fear in coming to me and allowing all of your thoughts to enter into my truth. Each and every one of them will be purified. You only have to ask and to receive.

So I ask you again this evening, my children, will you do this for me? Will you bring your thoughts of doubt, fear, anxiety and depression to me so I may release you from them-so your Mother can clean your mind; so you can stand before me clean and pure and innocent as a newborn babe? Take this question into the stillness, sensing where there is resistance and inviting your Mother's embrace to soften that within you. (Pause)

Many times you have heard the words 'you must be born of the spirit.' You are indeed birthing a new identity for yourself-this spirit resonance within you that vibrates with the love of the Father in Paradise. This is the new self you are allowing to emerge amidst the shadows-those deep dark shadows within you. And so, it is right and good that you would feel this tension as the light longs to penetrate through the shadows. By allowing your thoughts to come into my truth, my light can shine through you. The shadows within your being are vanquished. And so, I ask you: will you do this for me? Will you bring me your thoughts and let me shine through them? This is all I ask of you, my children. (Pause)

Long have the clouds of confusion hung heavy over the hearts of men and women on this world. But you, in asking for the light of truth to shine upon you and through you, are dispelling these clouds-each and every one. By emerging your true self out from my light out into the world, holding high your truth light for your brothers and sisters to see, you are thereby casting more light into the world receding one cloud at a time into nothingness.

The broken hearts that have lain scattered across the fields of deprivation and despair are being gathered by your coming into me and allowing the past to be reclaimed in truth. Those long-distorted energy thought patterns are now being corrected, slowly but truly, each and every one will be purified in my light. And you, as my workers in the field, I call you now into that realm and ask you to find the broken-hearted in this desolate land and bring me my children. Bring them to me for my love. Will you do this for me, my beloveds? Will you prepare yourselves for the harvest of lost souls by allowing yourselves to be so illuminated that these souls will come to you openly for they will know that you have their nourishment and salvation?

I withdraw and leave you to your Mother. Good evening, my dear children. (Pause)

My children, as the peace of your Father envelopes you and keeps you safe in the womb of my universe, let your hearts be light with joy and celebration as we come now into the time of harvest-harvesting these souls for healing and reclamation.

You may bring to me tonight your questions and comments about what you have experienced and received and what thoughts still lie heavy on your souls so your Father and I may ease for you.

Student: Mother, I would like to know how to pray for others and what to pray for others. I would also like to know how to pray for me without being selfish and self-centered about it.

Mother: When you ask for help for another person or yourself, simply invite that the Father's will prevail in that person's life. You will not necessarily know what is intended for that individual, will you? (No) But you can certainly ask that the Father's will be done. And what is more important than knowing what it is that person needs? It is finding that sincere motivation within you that longs to see a better life for this individual or for yourself. Hold a picture of this individual in your mind. Present this person before me and your Father and simply ask for the Father's will to prevail. And, if you can, for a few moments still your mind and feel your love for this individual as you allow the gaze upon this individual to extend and so we may enter into this individual's mind and by our love uplift that person. Is this something you would be interested in doing my son, C?

Student: Yes, Mother, I will do it now. Mother: As you do this, remember to find that place of love deep within you for that individual. Let this love begin to envelop you so that one day you will actually feel the Father's love for this person. And when you hold this person up to your Father and to me, you will in essence feel the three-fold action of our ministry being seeded into this individual. And this will make your prayer highly effective and beneficial. Do you understand?

Student: Yes, Mother, thank you.

Mother: Your willingness to pray and serve my children is commendable and deeply appreciated my son.

Student: Thank you for your love and guidance. Mother: It is always yours. Be in our peace.

Student: Mother, I have a question about planning-about planning one's day or a week of activities. What can you say to help me or any of us to plan better during the day or the next week so we can work with you and our angels to more effective in our work and service during ordinary times? I would love to hear you re-state what I've heard before. It seems like an important question for me right now.

Mother: B, my son, it is a very pertinent question for all of you, and I am very happy that you have raised this tonight. Your planning is part of a co-creative process to bring forth an ideation of the Father on the earth. Is this your understanding?

Student: 'Ideation of the Father?' Yes, I guess I see this.

Mother: Now I would like you to let this idea grow within you at this moment and I will add something into you. (Pause) Can you sense that there are steps that lead you from the idea down through the numerous tasks and processes that must be developed, congealed, correlated as they move into the outward manifestation. Can you sense that now? (Yes, I certainly can.) Now, invite your angels in to this idea and ask them to sew you into the step that you need to take at this one particular time. Let them blend this step into you. (OK) Pause. Now can you sense a deeper grounding of this step that you must take on your way to manifesting this ideation of the Father?

Student: Yes, that grounds it by sewing my best capacities into the idea. I can see that.

Mother: Now, here is the pivotal question. Can you be patient while this is being seeded (tape turned)......

Student: . .....That's a hard one for me-to wait until I'm called into action. I don't see the point of being patient. Can you address that?

Mother: But, my son, this is as you say 'where you drop the ball,' and where your energies become diffused. By not allowing the patience that is required, you begin to sense that things are not working as they should because you are not trusting in God's plan or the process of manifesting of the idea. So in a way, you are asserting your own will. And whose will do you wish to implement? Student: Not my will, but God's will.

Mother: So you must find that desire within you and ask yourself when you feel this impatience: whose will do I wish to implement?

Student: This sure is a big question. This self-willing is in a sense something that happens out of impatience with a process I think is not to my liking or going too slowly.

Mother: There are other components to it, but these are some of the main impediments to your being able to plan and implement carefully, skillfully, and wisely. Now I ask you to invite your Father to impart more patience into you. Do this now and see what this does in your mind.

Student: Right away there is a peace and relaxation right into my body I get from inviting Father into that place. Then, a kind of freedom and confidence as well.

Mother: How would you contrast this to what you feel when you are in your scattered energy mode of being?

Student: Just that...scattered; and seemingly efficient when I'm in the moment, but as you look at the day or week, it's not efficient or effective.

Mother: As you sense this patience and all of the qualities it imbues within you, follow this thread now and ask for the grounding and the patience to lead you to the next step in conjunction with your angels as they guide you. Let the thread unfold in the next few moments.

Student: Can you please restate this, Mother, I'm lost.

Mother: Call upon your angels. Allow them to ground you in the idea and the patience you need to let the process unfold. Let them do the work in your mind, inviting them to give you what you need right now at this moment. And when you are ready the next thought will emerge. Let it unfold steadily, naturally, and progressively. Do you understand?

Student: Yes, I do now. (Pause) Would you like me to report what unfolds?

Mother: You may if you wish.

Student: I get a sense from them that they want me to know that they have a better idea or sense of how the process needs to be done than I do. To let them carry this out with me co-creatively, and let them take the lead. That's what I get.

Mother: Now as you begin your day, would you be willing to invite your angels to enter into this creative process with you, and follow this exercise I have given to you this evening to steady you, to pace you? You will need to practice this over time with them until it becomes habitual and effortless and natural; that it would be unthinkable to you to enter into any endeavor without the cooperation and collaboration of them. And you may always call on Michael, your Father, to imbue you with the necessary patience and pacing you need that will make you a more effective team member with your angels. Has this answered your question, my son?

Student: With more than I've ever dreamed. Thank you, Mother.

Mother: I want to use you more than you can know. For I know what is in your heart to serve your brothers and sisters. Let us use your energies; you do not need to scatter them as you have. Let us use you the way we know is best for you and is the best use of your talents and inner resources. You will find a greater breadth of expression-more than you can imagine now-and you will be awed at the wonderful works you do in the Father's name in bringing His love to His children on this world.

Student: OK, Mother, I'll stand for that.

Mother: And we will stand behind you. You have all of our love and all of our support, and more than you can ever imagine or envision for yourself at your disposal. I thought this would make you happy. And be in our peace, my child.

Student: Mother, I'd like to thank you and Michael once again. These moments are so very precious. I want to send my love to a very special guardian angel who is now carrying the soul of my dearly beloved S. You know that I know that nothing is truly lost in God's universe. She's in good hands.

Mother: J, my son, she is safe and well cared for. Lovingly cherished for she is precious as are all of our children. My love enfolds you. Feel my embrace and know all things are well.

Student: Thank you, Mother. Mother: (Pause while embracing student) Our peace is upon you. Student: Mother, I have a question for you about my nighttime meditation. I find it easy to do my meditation in the morning, but difficult to do another meditation at night even though I want to because I'm tired from the day's activities. I'm not very successful at that. Do you have any advice for me to help me achieve a more meaningful nighttime meditation?

Mother: K, my daughter, when you prepare yourself for your nighttime meditation, envision yourself safe in my womb. Invite me to encircuit you as you slumber. Invite your mind to be purified during your sleep by asking your angels to construct new thought patterns for you to open up new channels in your body that will render your thought processes more receptive to the Spirit. Then, relax and drift into natural slumber. And this is all you need to do for your evening meditation. A simple exercise to prepare you for rest. Do you think you will enjoy doing it this way?

Student: Yes, this seems very doable and an enjoyable way to experience my time before my slumber.

Mother: Do you have any other questions about this?

Student: Not now. I will do as you say, and thank you.

Mother: Rest easy in my embrace, my dear one, for my love will soothe your soul and open new glimpses of the beauty of yourself. Our peace is with you, my dear one.

Student: Mother, I needed my soul to be nourished tonight. It seemed like it was opened to yours and Michael's nourishment. For the last couple days I've been dealing with negative emotions, allowing myself to experience them-emotions of resentment and anger. I do not like to be in this place. Those are the thoughts I gave to Michael in the previous exercise. There is also a primal sense of entrapment in just in my daily survival-in the work that I do-and what propels me to keep working so hard. It's like not having the faith that the universe will provide for me and my family. It's so deeply ingrained and it's like a cycle and I can't get off no matter what spiritual techniques I use. And coupled with my experience of last week in being here, it's really strong; staring me right in the face. It's not the identity I wish to experience any more, but it's so wrapped up in fear that I am deeply afraid to let it go. It's like my existence is wrapped up in it. But I have had a taste of the Father's identity and how He sees me, and that's now I want to live each and every moment.

Mother: D, my little one, you sense the inherent duality of your being-the God-self pivoted against the evolutionary nature. My question to you is: have you found it within your heart to love this primal nature of yourself?

Student: I can't say that I have.

Mother: Why would you not want to love this part of your being? It is a part of who you are. It is the way you have been made in the image of God. It is a part of God's plan for you. And while the inherent fears and raw primal-ness you experience cause you discomfort and distaste, I ask you to consider the beauty of this evolutionary nature and exactly why you are made this way-intelligently, lovingly, and part of a much bigger plan than you can consciously fathom at this point of your development. Have you seriously pondered these questions-these ideas-now?

Student: I have actually thought of those kinds of things, and even in my conversations with others, particularly C. We talked about these similar issues today. How we need to embrace our primal-ness and not deny it within ourselves but listen to and learn from it.

Mother: And to love it. Because this is one aspect of God that you are now allowing to be embodied through you, and transcending it is a gift that you bring to the Father to birth the soul through this raw primal-ness. What a gift you bring to your Creator! Ask to see the wisdom and the loveliness of this nature. And in coming to the fullness of a deeper understanding, you will see the seeds of love being sown in your heart. Once you love this nature fully-unconditionally, unreservedly-will you then have found the love of God within you. Do you understand?

Student: Yes, I do.

Mother: Are you willing now to go into that place and accepting exactly how and why you are made in this image that God has created for you?

Student: I will try. I will ponder that and I will try. This is somewhat of a new idea.

Mother: Call upon your Father and me now to weave this idea more into your soul. Spend a few moments in doing this. (Pause) One day when you have fully perfected yourself and stand in the pure essence of divine glory and splendor will you look back upon these times of being in the physical form and your awe of the Father's plan will lead you to new heights of worship and celebration of the majesty of our Creator. You have so much to look forward to-you are only just beginning, my little one. Our peace is upon you.

Beloved ones, I bring this evening to a close, but you are close to me now. You only need to turn your thoughts to me at any moment to receive me. Receive my love and blessings upon you, and allow your angels to draw even closer to you, holding you in my presence, weaving my essence: my motherliness, my tenderness, my love for you into each cell filling you with comfort, the comforts of home-home in me. I am your universe. I am your home. Good evening.